“I never knew until that moment how bad it could hurt to lose something you never really had…”

Cue in the Bob Seger music. Whenever I think of breakups, I picture a lost boy riding on his bike in the sunset eating a hot dog . He’s against the wind…with mustard all over his face.

Ha, from what I remember that was Kevin Arnold. Winnie never knew what she wanted. At least her emotions and dialogue were limited to, “Hi and Kevin go home.” It was not complete without the depressing songs from the Beach Boy’s & Bob Seger in the background. I was “lucky” to have one Kevin moment in my life. I look back and laugh (because it felt like a cheesy t.v. episode ). It was like the quote from the show how we left it,

“Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what’s to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn’t have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves…for growing up.”

Then the ex rode off with the beautiful sunshine on his beach cruiser (no hot dog). However, I didn’t play Beach Boy’s, but I did go dancing in the moonlight. It was weight lifted off my shoulders of a dead relationship. It was always a friendship love than true love. What is real love anyway? There is so many ways to actually love anything. I love a clean restroom with toilet paper…

“All our young lives we search for someone to love. Someone who makes us complete. We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope. All the while wondering if somewhere, somehow, there’s someone perfect, who might be searching for us.”

It’s true down the road of bad mixed tapes and playlist’s of lost puppy love’s there is your match. Each relationship I had tested me for the next. They all made me stronger as a person. Winnie Cooper ended up finding her love of art history in Paris to return to Kevin married. Traveling always clears my mind. Put’s me back to reality than make believe, la la land. I’m happy to say I found my happiness and my love. Plus, we love the Beach Boy’s.